It’s nine-thirty, and I’ve been ready to go to bed since 8pm, but I don’t fall asleep until Elisha comes to bed, and it’s not really fair to drag your 28-year-old husband to bed with you because you’re a big baby, ya know?

(Forgive that run-on sentence.)

Today was one of those days where I wanted my goals and dreams RIGHT NOW.

So what did I do? I consumed instead of created.

Guess what? It made the desire worse.

How did she get to 100,000 subscribers in one year?? (Not by looking at other gal’s YouTube channels and wishing, Katie girl. 😉 ) How does she add value? (Not by sitting here looking at other gal’s IG feeds and hoping.)

It was a real funk. 

Sometimes you are enjoying the small wins in life. Connecting with friends. Encouraging women. Being encouraged. And then all of a sudden you look up and realize you haven’t become a rock star yet, and no one has called and asked you to be the next Flo (Progressive Lady) on TV. 

Elisha, as always, gave me a strong dose of truth and reminded me of all the beautiful reasons I do what I do. 

I create because I love it. I create because it fuels me. I create because it’s a blessing. 

So, I created. 

And life is back to being sweet. 

I hear Elisha brushing his teeth so I’m going to go join him. It is so incredible how he patiently leads by example. It’s convicting. I’ll just sit on the couch and whine about why he’s not going to bed when I haven’t made one slight hint of budging until he does. It sounds so terrible when it’s written out, doesn’t it?

Alright. Enough for now.

Love to any and all who stumble upon this musing.

The Kathryn Joy